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thank you all for sharing. here are this week's secrets:

• i have the doctors, my family, and friends convinced that i have a terminal illness but i don’t. i take the meds and all.
• my live-in boyfriend of three years is not in love with me anymore. i don’t know what it will take to end it with him since i haven’t yet.
• no one knows how scared i really am.
• i have herpes and just found out my boyfriend is cheating on me. i want to give him herpes so he will think she gave it to him.
• my granddad is dying. i have no idea what to do.
• the more you tell me to sleep more, eat regularly, study more, the more you push me away. i know what i'm doing. i'm here, aren't i? i know i can do this and the more you tell me to "take care of myself" the more aggravated i get at this place. don't push me away after i've learned to trust you.
• my mom died when i was 12. my daddy hasn’t been with anyone else. now i’m 17 and he’s dating and i hate her because i want to be the only woman he wants in his life.
• i’m in lust with a 19 year old guy. i’m 31. i wouldn’t want my son dating someone that much older. i feel like such a loser.
• i think i was raped by a classmate while in kindergarten and now i’m scared shitless.
• i was attracted to him before i knew him. now he’s my best friend and i think i love him. i’m pretty sure he feels the same but what if he doesn’t?
• deep down there’s a part of me that wants to be a housewife.
• last semester i had a crush on a guy in my class. we became really good friends so i decided to take one of the same classes with him this spring. now we’re in the same room and it’s awkward.
• i wish i was 18 so i could get antidepressants without my mom knowing. she is sure i’m not depressed and she doesn’t trust those drugs anyway.
• i lie awake every night until 11:11 waiting for another foolish chance to wish for true love.
• i wish to fall in love every 11:11
• i’m having a affair with a woman my mom’s age and it turns me on so much when she calls me her little boy!
• part of me doesn’t want to move in with him because he doesn’t like cats. i love cats.
• i’m half black and i feel bad for not really caring about obama becoming president. all of my friends were making a big deal about inauguration day too but i was just happy my school kept cancelling classes.
• when i got my new blackberry storm i told everyone i hated it just to sound spoiled.
• i’m not as strong as people think.
• i have so many secrets i don’t know who i am anymore.
• all through this you turned me into we. if i said i couldn’t do something you said we could but now you don’t and i’m all alone and it hurts.
• i hit myself. the bruises come from me.
• i admit i have a problem invading my boyfriend’s privacy but i can’t stop now that i’ve learned i can’t fully trust him.
• i’m really sick of trying to be perfect but i have to keep trying because i’m afraid of disappointing my mom.
• i’m so egotistical that i think he’s gay because he rejected me.
• i am truly over him but when we are together i can’t help but think how amazing it would be if we dated.
• i wish i had a terminal illness so make a wish would grant my wish to meet zach roloff.
• you’re my best friend but i’d pick them over you any day. i know that sounds bad but i want friends and i have more when you’re not around.
• i hate it when girls decorate their myspace pages with tributes to their boyfriends but really i’m just jealous.
• he doesn’t know how afraid i am of losing him. i love him so much.
• it was never simple with you, just extravagant. i’m ready for simple.
• i tell my dog everything because i know he’s the only one who’ll never judge me.
• just when i thought i had it all together my dad died and my mom got laid off. i can’t express how fucked up i think the world is.
• i finally realized he will never be the guy i want him to be; i can’t keep wishing he will be one day. it’s over.
• i say i love myself but i don’t i just don’t have the will power to have an eating disorder.
• i get upset when he talks to other girls.
• i leave the door open when i shower so my little brother can look in.
• i never realized how stupid and fake she was until she broke my heart.
• i told him i was over him because i know that’s what he needed. i’m letting him leave with a clear mind even though it’ll kill me everyday he’s gone.
• i married the wrong guy. i’m totally in love with his brother.
• i have a huge crush on obama. his ears turn me on.
• i anonymously call his favorite radio station and request his favorite songs when i know he’s listening. i miss him so much.
• they all told me not to talk to them when i’m unhappy. now they think i’m happy but i still cut. i just don’t tell them because i know they don’t care.
• you’re better for me than he is. fuck you for showing me that.
• i’m a senior in college and i masturbate more than a 15 year old boy. my boyfriend doesn’t know how much i do it without him.
• i’m terrified the girl my boyfriend cheated on me with is having his baby.
• i lie a lot and about anything.
• i cry during romantic comedies because they show me how much i’m loved.
• my younger sister calls me anorexic. at 15 and pregnant, i weighted 165 pounds. 17 months later, i weigh 99 pounds. i’m finally admitting i need help.
• i use my cell phone as a vibrator.
• i pretend to hate how many different guys my mom brings home but i love listening to her get fucked.
• i just came back from a cruise where i fell for a boy in a week out at sea. i have a boyfriend, and now i don't feel anything for him. i'll never see the boy from the ship again.
• i want him to leave his wife and come back to me. everything was so good with us and everything is so shit with her. why doesn’t he see that?
• i’m over her and now she’s mad at me. i thought this is what you wanted?
• i’m afraid no one would believe me if i told them i work out for an hour every night.
• i let a mall santa touch me when i sat on his lap. i went back three times.
• i saw his girlfriend in the bathroom and i considered telling her everything he wants kept in his past.
• i don’t have a crush and i don’t know why but i think there must be something wrong with me.
• i’m in love with him and i’d do anything for him but i don’t know how to tell him
• i’m terrified that my boyfriend will make our break permanent if i’m too clingy but i love him and i don’t know how long i can hold that back.
• i was strong enough to say no when i wanted to give in so badly. i left with a smile instead of a regret.
• when you left, it felt like you sliced me open and gutted me, leaving me to be just an empty shell. i’ve never loved someone as much as i love you, and i don’t believe that i ever will. as much as i hate you right now, i know that no woman will ever be able to care about you as much as i do. and when you realize that, i’ll still be here. when i said forever, i meant it. because i literally loved you so much that it hurt. every time i saw you i was so overcome with emotion that i didn’t know what to do or think and it just ended up causing me pain. you still are my whole world. please realize that.
• i wish i was stronger, that way i would tell you i have feelings for you again, and not play it off as "my friend hacked my msn".
• my biggest fear is that i will be a failure in the eyes of my children.
• my big sister practices giving blow jobs on me
• i have the biggest crush on this "emo" girl at my school, but i can't talk about it to anyone, because then they would know i am bi and they would all hate me.
• my sister caught me taking her panties out of the hamper. i told her i was selling them to a friend but really they were for me to use when i masturbate.
• i just want to be loved like that.
• i’m angry at the world right now.
• i don’t think i can take another day of this. i want to end it all. i already have everything planned, from the note to the tombstone.
• i tried to make a move on my gay friend. i hate the way i feel after stupid drunk nights.
• i am proud of the fact that i am finally able to unlock most of the special texts he sent to me.
• i lied. i didn’t quit. i’m sorry. i tried.
• i am going to texas with my boyfriend to meet the rest of his family. i’m nervous and excited at the same time. what if they don’t like me?
• i’m bi-sexual and i’m head over heals for a girl. the problem is she is straight. it breaks my heart to know i’ll never be with her.
• friday night i came the closest i’ve ever come to killing myself. i called the suicide hotline and it saved me.
• please just catch me if i fall and don’t let me go. i hope this day gives us a future to look forward to.
• every time i walk in on my boyfriend looking at porn i feel like i’m not good enough for him. i hate that he makes me feel like that.
• i’m planning on making the biggest mistake of my life but it’ll make me happier in the long run. i’ll never be what you want me to be.
• ever since he fingered me in the movie theater seeing ‘the omen’ every time someone says the word evil i get wet. nobody ever made me feel the way he did.
• i’m jealous of every girl who is skinnier, prettier, and happier than i am.
• there is no part of my life that makes me happy because i have never fit in anywhere and i’m afraid i never will.
• today’s the day. i finally get to say goodbye.
• for the first time in months i didn’t talk to my best friend before bed. he didn’t call because he now has a new girl in his life. i can’t believe i’m so jealous of someone neither of us knows.
• i wanted my dog to die before i talked to my ex-best friend again so something big will have changed since she left. now my dog is gone and i feel awful.
• i’m a freshman in college. statistically i shouldn’t be here and sometimes i wish i wasn’t and that i would end up a cocaine addict like my parents.
• i’m mad at my two best friends for ruining my twentieth birthday by being mad at each other. i hate that they are so selfish they can’t put aside their differences for me.
• i hate my ex-best friend's new girlfriend so much that i took the time to find out where she lives and i fantasize about breaking her neck.