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here are this week's secrets. as always, thank you all for sharing.

• sometimes i wish my boyfriend would dress more like his best friend but a big part of me wants him to never change.
• i dress up. not for important meetings or projects, but rather to feel good about myself.
• i feel like there is no reason to be here but talking to you gives me a reason to stay. thanks.
• i developed my career and finished college at 19. i love what i do and i make good money but i feel stuck. i’m not happy where i am and i’m too settled to do anything drastic. i’m 23 now.
• i hate feeling vulnerable.
• i don’t feel good enough to be on frank’s site. i’ve never mailed in a secret for fear of rejection and i also felt my boyfriend deserved them more. but i have sent multiple e-mails in hope they would appear under the secrets. if one did that would be a sign to me that he cares and i would have mailed in some secrets. lately i’ve had a feeling of not being good enough and now the thing that has always been there for me is letting me down. i think i just want some proof that he reads them all too.
• i really wanna be with you.
• i have no respect for my parents but i live at home because i can’t afford to be on my own. i wish every day that i had the money to leave and never come back.
• every night i charge my phone hoping that you’ll call. i can’t tell anybody though, i’m too proud to let anyone know of your power over me.
• i’m eating more than i have been for months. i feel like i’m overeating. no matter how much i eat i still feel empty. i want my control back.
• you hurt me for the last time, i’m through with you. thank god i have friends that love me.
• the people i fear the most are dentists because they inflict more emotional and physical pain than anybody else. that’s saying a lot from an abused person.
• i know he’s just using me because i know him perfectly. he’s my best friend and i can’t bear to lose him. at least i’m using him too. loneliness is a burden.
• i don’t have the heart to tell him.
• i pooped my pants in the fourth grade.
• lately i’ve been feeling so uncomfortable, lonely, scared, strange and, worst of all, like i’m not supposed to be here. why can’t i ever just feel alive and well?
• i’m sorry but you are the one who made a huge mistake, not me!
• you’ve got nothing to worry about. the guy i liked for 3 years, the one who liked me back, switched schools today. you, not him, are amazing. i love you!
• i’m giving up facebook-stalking my ex-friend. i don’t have the will to tell anyone but i wanted to get it in writing somewhere so i’m obliged to keep my word.
• i only listen to ‘escape the fate’ because it reminds me of her. i still remember that amazing night every day.
• i want to scream, jump up and down, collapse, and cry. does nobody see the pain i’m going through? all for a man who thinks he loves me. i’m risking it all for him.
• i’ve been having sex with my gym teacher in her office during lunch since the new semester started.
• we never fought before. i’m doubting everything. i hate it.
• today i found out a person i knew hung himself. i didn’t know him that well but i will miss him.
• i secretly wish she would turn on you. you don’t deserve anyone to be with you.
• everything is my fault, i know, but i won’t admit it. especially to them. they don’t deserve the satisfaction.
• i hate coming in second place to video games in my boyfriend’s heart. it hurts a lot.
• i’m sitting in class right now thinking of you and wishing that everything would just fall into place like it does in the movies.
• i’m terrified of what my future will look like.
• i’m almost 15 and i’m considering having sex. i wanted to wait until i was 18 but i feel like i’m ready. i just wish i could figure out what i really want.
• i honestly hate my family.
• i say that i’m done with him but truthfully i want nothing more than to be with him. he hurt me so many times, i don’t know why i’m dying to be with him.
• i let my brother take my virginity last night. it was better than i imagined.
• i get so jealous when he talks to other girls, i can’t help but feel alone. it can take me from being in a wonderful mood to wanting to curl up in a ball.
• i love it when you hug me. those are the only real hugs i get and you’ve got no idea how much i need you.
• i wish i could know if you’re hurting. at least then i wouldn’t regret wasting my time on such a cold-hearted, two-faced bitch as a friend. i deserve an apology from you for fucking me over. i know you won’t ever admit that you’re wrong or sorry. no matter how many people walk away from you, you’ll always play the victim. i feel bad for you.
• for the first time in a long time i feel pretty.
• my name always has meaning when she says it.
• i send texts to my girlfriend while watching hardcore asian porn. if she asks to call I say i’m on the treadmill.
• the person whom i’ve known all my life, my best friend, is starting to annoy the hell out of me.
• to keep from cutting the last few depressing days i’ve let my puppy bite me as hard as she wants so nobody knows i harmed myself again.
• my worst fear is that i won’t make it out of here alive. and that is my greatest wish.
• i want him but he wants her.
• i love the taste and feel of cum! i want it all over me!
• i’m 15 and have recently been drinking heavily and love it because for the first time i feel like i’ve found a place with no worries.
• i work at a grocery store in a very wealthy neighborhood. whenever a customer is being really difficult i slip a $1 donation into their order for the charity of the month. they rarely notice and if they do they never have the heart to tell me to void off the charity contribution. i feel like robin hood.
• some days i wish i could trade places with another person just to know how they see the world. if they maybe see it better than i do.
• i wish someone would ask me to prom in the cute way he’s planning on asking you. too bad you’re going to say no. you don’t know what you’re missing.
• why is everyone so interested in her? i don’t get it. everyone tells me she’s not attractive and she has no personality yet every guy seems to flock to her. why?
• why can’t i do this?
• it’s been four months. i’ve been taking my meds and have pretty much decided against taking my life and i am finally beginning to feel happy again.
• she was right. it’s a good thing i fell for him. accepting that and telling him was the best decision i’ve ever made.