23.2.10

textsecret

  • i want what is not good for me. i plan to make sure i never get it and i’m proud of myself for staying strong. still, i wish there was another way to do this.
  • i’ve always told myself i’d never cheat on him but i ended up doing it anyway.
  • i really want to have sex but i want it to mean something like before. i miss the way you touched me. it’s like you just knew what i wanted and when. / i think i may have feelings for my best guy friend. i’m not sure if it is necessarily a dating type feeling but more like i just really want to get some, and he’d work.
  • i did x once. i thought about it everyday. i did it twice and now i’m addicted. / i’m in love with my best friend but he loves his girlfriend. we fell in love at different times. there is a reason for everything but what’s this one?
  • people have convinced me that what he did was rape but i’m not so sure. maybe it’s just a regret. maybe i did it to myself.
  • all i think about is how to distract myself with ideas, sex, and activities so i won’t always be thinking about committing suicide.
  • after three weeks of having quit smoking i caved and smoked. i feel so bad now. i don’t know what i love more, the feeling I get when i smoke or how good i feel having not smoked.
  • i had a great valentine’s weekend. i was finally happy. why did you have to message me? my heart was finally healing and it broke all over again because of you.
  • in my entire life i have always felt that the worst of the genes in my family got dumped on me. i’ll never be pretty enough to be anyone’s girlfriend or wife ever.
  • i’m a girl and i just masturbated to girl-on-girl porn and i feel guilty because i liked it more than when i have sex with my fuckbuddy.