14.4.09

  • this sucks, all of my friends have a date to jr. prom. i’m the only one going solo. / i wish i could find a guy who didn’t judge on looks and actually got to know me. it kills me that people like my niece, who is a slut, can find guys and i can’t.
  • i need you more than ever. come here.
  • all of the secrets about incest disgust me. but they also turn me on.
  • i went to tijuana with a bunch of friends and we all went to see the donkey show. afterward we all talked about how disgusted we were but i was so turned on i couldn’t wait to get home to my dog!
  • i’m a couple of images from being the happiest ever. i’m a couple of images from ending it all.
  • for the first time in years i am truly happy. you’ve made me feel better about myself and have given me a good reason to wake up every morning with a smile on my face. thank you.
  • i’m wanting a cigarette. / you were the best thing i ever did have, until you turned your back and never looked back.
  • i’ve never met the boy that loves me.i don’t like how much control and impact he has on my life. / i’m sick of being alone. i just want to find that special someone and stick with them forever and ever.
  • two more months, then my sister graduates. the next day we are moving to a new town and setting up new lives as husband and wife. i love her so much!
  • i read a song he wrote and i’m pretty sure he wrote it for me. thing is, lately we haven’t been talking. the chorus said he loved me.
  • my best friend is jealous that i’m finally happy and now is an asshole all the time. / it’s really stupid how people are so self centered that they think i have nothing better to do than talk about them and their life. fuck that.
  • i take my mom’s prescription pain medication hoping it will heal the mental pain. it never does. but It makes the physical pain feel real good.
  • why can’t i ever just meet a cute amazing boy? do i not deserve to be happy?
  • today (april 12th) my best friend said we’re done. i can’t stop crying.
  • i will choose you over her in a heartbeat, but i don’t think i’m going to get that chance.
  • i would have been so happy with you.
  • my boyfriend broke up with me because i live too far away. a week later he got another girlfriend. she lives in the same city i do.
  • when i send in a secret, i know that you’ll be able to figure out which one is mine. it’s strangely comforting.
  • my mom sneaks into my room when i’m jerking off. she doesn’t know that i know.
  • i would give anything to make you happy.
  • i keep telling myself only two more years until i can get out of this hellhole but the truth is i don’t think i can last much longer.
  • i’ve been in love. it’s not it’s not worth the pain. i never want to fall in love again. i’d rather be alone for the rest of my life.
  • my friends don’t realize how well my plan is going. the only one who is going to hurt when it happens is me.
  • i’ve been drunk for two weeks straight. i’m going on three and i really don’t know what to do.

6.4.09

textsecret

  • he’s going to remember me forever. i hope i didn’t screw up his first kiss.
  • i want to kill that asshole. the only thing i had to remember him by and you fucking do that? and then laugh about it?! some friend…
  • you think you won a big prize. but honey, the only reason you keep him interested is because you keep opening your legs and it’s disgusting. both of you are.
  • i found pictures of my best friend on my dad’s phone that she had sexted to him and i got jealous because i don’t want him to think she is prettier than me. i’ve sent him pictures now too!
  • i told him how i felt. the feelings weren’t reciprocated. it was strangely liberating. i don’t need you anymore.
  • it made me feel more alive than anything ever has and now i won’t let myself. and somehow not cutting is supposed to make me feel better?
  • there’s only one thing that i believe that he said; that my best isn’t really my best. thanks asshole. / like always, when good things happen, there is always a price to pay. in this case, i’m losing one of my “bests”. we’ll see if it’s for the better.
  • my life is going so well lately it scares the shit out of me.
  • i cheated and if i tell you, you will forgive me. you will tell me how much you love me and beg me to stay to work on it. but i love you so much that i almost hate you for it. no one should get to hurt you like that. i’m so sorry.
  • i feel like i have a real life that i’m living and a second life in my head that no one knows about. i’m happier in the imaginary one.
  • i work so hard to ensure her happiness and in the end all i get are tears. why am i never enough?
  • i wonder if the only reason i’m so skinny is because i have a medical problem, but i refuse to go to the doctor because i’m afraid once they fix it i’ll be fat.
  • my cousin raped me when i was asleep. i woke up but pretended to be asleep the whole time. he’s still one of my best friends.
  • i think i’m in love with a guy i’m not dating. i’m not even sure if he likes me as more than a friend.
  • i lied. i used a butter knife. / it depresses me to the extreme when i go a whole day on a full cell phone charge and lose no bars. it makes me feel so empty and alone.
  • whenever there is a thunderstorm, i pretend to be scared so my dad will let me get into bed with him. then when he is asleep again i play with his penis.
  • i lie all the time. to everyone. to friends and family. i don’t even think about it anymore and people actually believe me.
  • i’m sick of the stories where everything with the couple ends up perfect and in love. what about the rest of us who don’t get a good ending? what happens to us?
  • when i spend the night at my friend’s house, i have sex with his mom after he goes to sleep.
  • my mom makes my lunch.
  • she says i have proven to her that i am incapable of settling down and that all that is left to do for me is to stay at home alone sitting in the corner. she also said she will not try to stop me if i try to get away. she is a liar.
  • so i like him a lot and he likes me too but i don’t know to what extent. i want to show him differently from all of the other girls, i want to prove him wrong and i know i can. but i just want to give up now. it feels like this is going no where with him.
  • it’s been almost three weeks. i didn’t think it would be this hard to stop. i want to cut every freaking day.
  • every day that i don’t talk to you i feel a weight off of my shoulders. the problem is there is always a weight added to my heart.
  • i save textsecrets that i connect with so when i read them later i can think, “i’m not alone.”
  • the 18th is going to be so awkward. it’s going to be my first time seeing him in forever. i think i might still like him, or at least my memory of him.
  • he’s the reason why i wake up each day. he has finally given me something to look forward to and i can’t even have him to myself.
  • to the secret about practicing giving bj’s on your brother; thanks for the idea! my brother and i have never been so close.
  • please don’t let anything happen to you because i don’t think i would be able to handle it.
  • one of my son’s best friends since kindergarten sent an invitation for me, to my office, for her 18th birthday party, with a lipstick kiss. i’ve been hard ever since!