14.4.09

  • this sucks, all of my friends have a date to jr. prom. i’m the only one going solo. / i wish i could find a guy who didn’t judge on looks and actually got to know me. it kills me that people like my niece, who is a slut, can find guys and i can’t.
  • i need you more than ever. come here.
  • all of the secrets about incest disgust me. but they also turn me on.
  • i went to tijuana with a bunch of friends and we all went to see the donkey show. afterward we all talked about how disgusted we were but i was so turned on i couldn’t wait to get home to my dog!
  • i’m a couple of images from being the happiest ever. i’m a couple of images from ending it all.
  • for the first time in years i am truly happy. you’ve made me feel better about myself and have given me a good reason to wake up every morning with a smile on my face. thank you.
  • i’m wanting a cigarette. / you were the best thing i ever did have, until you turned your back and never looked back.
  • i’ve never met the boy that loves me.i don’t like how much control and impact he has on my life. / i’m sick of being alone. i just want to find that special someone and stick with them forever and ever.
  • two more months, then my sister graduates. the next day we are moving to a new town and setting up new lives as husband and wife. i love her so much!
  • i read a song he wrote and i’m pretty sure he wrote it for me. thing is, lately we haven’t been talking. the chorus said he loved me.
  • my best friend is jealous that i’m finally happy and now is an asshole all the time. / it’s really stupid how people are so self centered that they think i have nothing better to do than talk about them and their life. fuck that.
  • i take my mom’s prescription pain medication hoping it will heal the mental pain. it never does. but It makes the physical pain feel real good.
  • why can’t i ever just meet a cute amazing boy? do i not deserve to be happy?
  • today (april 12th) my best friend said we’re done. i can’t stop crying.
  • i will choose you over her in a heartbeat, but i don’t think i’m going to get that chance.
  • i would have been so happy with you.
  • my boyfriend broke up with me because i live too far away. a week later he got another girlfriend. she lives in the same city i do.
  • when i send in a secret, i know that you’ll be able to figure out which one is mine. it’s strangely comforting.
  • my mom sneaks into my room when i’m jerking off. she doesn’t know that i know.
  • i would give anything to make you happy.
  • i keep telling myself only two more years until i can get out of this hellhole but the truth is i don’t think i can last much longer.
  • i’ve been in love. it’s not it’s not worth the pain. i never want to fall in love again. i’d rather be alone for the rest of my life.
  • my friends don’t realize how well my plan is going. the only one who is going to hurt when it happens is me.
  • i’ve been drunk for two weeks straight. i’m going on three and i really don’t know what to do.

21 comments:

Anonymous said...

The secret about never wanting to be in love again is exactly how I feel. Thank you for telling my secret.

Anonymous said...

no text secret for this week?

Anonymous said...

didnt you update on mondays, not tuesdays?

Anonymous said...

whats up with the no secrets. ive been checking all week

Anonymous said...

I've been checking all week too.

Anonymous said...

I wonder if something happened to Chibi :/

Anonymous said...

Ur not the only one i've been checking all week to I think a lot of people have =[ I wish he'd update

Anonymous said...

this is upsetting.

i dont like it :(

PLEASE update!!!

Anonymous said...

Pretty pretty please update!!!! =/

Anonymous said...

what do you guys think happened? im really nervous!

Anonymous said...

I hope nothing bad has happened to him >.< Maybe he's just been really really busy and he hasn't been able to update =/

Anonymous said...

think happy thoughts

<3 and peace to all

Anonymous said...

CHIBI COME BACK! At least to let us know you're okay v.v

Anonymous said...

this is so weird!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

I think this is the longest he's ever gone without updating =O Its kinda scary >.<

Anonymous said...

Chibi is ok i think???? he was on myspace today if that makes you feel better

Anonymous said...

well, since new texts aren't being put up right now...

I went to a dance with my friends. Beforehand we took a few pictures and everybody was complimenting each other on how damn good they looked...but no one told me I looked good. Or wanted to take a picture with me.

The rest of the night was full of exclusion. Two wanted to dance only with each other. Another two went off to do something we were supposed to do as a group...

I hate being excluded. It makes me feel like I don't really have any friends.

Anonymous said...

I'm sad. I liked reading the secrets every week...

Anonymous said...

someone should text chibi and ask him if hes okay.

i miss all the updates!

Gabrielle said...

what happened to chibi? I'm so sad. :(

just another tally, vannessa said...

I'm glad I'm among many who've noticed his absence.
I don't think anything bad happened to him, probably caught up with his work or something perhaps?
I'm sure they'll be up soon :\