text secret

• i saw you on saturday morning. we spent all saturday night and sunday together. i smiled at you monday morning and you smiled back. you left monday afternoon. it’s monday night and i’ve been crying for hours.
• i’m afraid of losing him. i’m afraid that one day he’ll text and say that we can’t talk anymore. i’m most afraid of him never texting back at all. / even though i’m younger and you’re older i would drop everything i have here to be with you. i honestly think you’re all i need.
• i love the fact that i was lied to for this long. how fucking classy.
  being away from my girlfriend sucks. i think i’m starting to forget how much i really do love her. / as the days of summer pass i’m afraid that i’m very close to losing the person behind the reason of my very existence. / most recently, i think that my ex-boyfriend is the man i’m going to marry 10 – 15 years from now.
• boy, i think that i’m in love with you.
• i wish that i could move far away with just my family and feel guilty for leaving my friends. i love them; i just don’t want them anymore.
• my friends and therapist think that i’m doing better than i actually am. / the voices tell me to die. i haven’t told my therapist about them because i refuse to go to a psych ward. / you can’t say that i guilt tripped you. if it was a guilt trip then you would have to be able to feel guilt, which would require you to have a soul.
• i know that i should finish school and fulfill my potential but i really want to stay home and have babies.
• i feel like there are too many places to live and too many lifestyles to try to fit into one life. i am curious about living so many different ways and places i don’t know how to do it. i feel like i’m never gonna live my life the way i dream. i want it to be some ways it probably never will be and that terrifies me. i’m scared to get old. i’m scared that i can’t get back my youth and my parents aren’t letting me live what i have left of it.
• i’m sad you let me go this quickly. i wish you would fight to keep me as much as i fought to keep you in the beginning.
• i want nothing more than to be able to walk away from you. but every night i steel myself to, i end up dreaming of what we had and find it impossible to do it. / i’m not comfortable in my own life. there are so many things that can go horribly wrong and that terrifies me.
  i don’t feel like part of the family anymore, which isn’t helping anything.
• i hate that you saw me in short shorts. i only wanted one man to see that much skin. ever.
• you just crashed your car rushing to meet me. then you told me you liked me over the phone. i told you i liked you too, but i don’t.
• my girlfriend is out at prom right now because she couldn’t take me. some other guy is walking around with my girl. i’m infuriated.
• i’m miserable.
• today i wish was my last. i’m just so tired. i would make it my last but i would feel bad putting anyone out to bury me. i don’t know how to be a degenerate. i just don’t know how to change.
• i wish that you would treat me bad just once so that i could feel ok about wanting to leave you.
• i am going through a divorce because my husband and i have had an open marriage and he fell in love with his girlfriend. he wants to marry her and have babies. / he and this relationship were completely unexpected and absolutely welcome. i don’t know what i would do without his support and caring and belief in me.
• why won’t you let me love you? we could both use the comfort.
• i sometimes wish that i had been killed in the car crash that killed my friend. it may have made things easier.
• i still don’t know which of my best friend’s brothers is which! i’ve known her for 6 years.
• i tell everyone about how i have so many friends so they won’t know how alone i truly am.
• i am married. i text my ex from 3 years ago to see how he was. he is still bitter. it somehow makes me feel good that he is married and still has feelings.
• i felt happier with the boy whom i’ve had a fling with for two weeks than the relationship i’ve had for more than nine months. now he has a girlfriend. i wished he could have loved me the way i loved him. i wished i was one of his top priorities like he was mine. i wished that his action would have done the speaking rather than pointless words that never came to be. no, you weren’t a waste of my time; i just hope you treat your next girlfriend like the princess she should be treated like. like i was never treated.
• i’m the best fucking thing that will ever happen to you and i can’t wait for the day that you wake up completely alone and realize that.
• we talked about suicide at youth group tonight. it brought back lots of old suicidal thoughts i haven’t had since my last attempt. / no one’s ever really been there for me and i’m beginning to see why.
• it annoys me when my friends complaining about their lives when they have everything going for them.
• post secret is the reason i met the love of my life.
• i suddenly don’t feel like doing this anymore but i feel powerless to change it. / i cut today. it never makes me happy but it does make me feel so good. unfortunately. / i’m starting to really not like this lifestyle but i’m terrified about what i’d have to do to change it. / today i want to kill myself and what really bothers me is that i don’t have a reason other than i don’t want to live anymore.
• i’m making someone i know is right for me wait so i can see if i can make my current messed-up relationship work. you said the idea of me snorting my pills kind of bothers you. so i do it in the bathroom so you don’t have to watch.
• i hate my orientation. it prevents me from having normal relationships with my best friends because i always end up falling in love with them. i wish i was normal.
• my best friend died 3 days ago and i’ve never felt more alone and empty.
• i lied to my boyfriend about cheating on him. it is his baby. i was just scared he would take him. now it’s killing him. i wish i didn’t lie. i can’t tell him.
• i gave my boyfriend the number to this website. god now i regret it. what if he sent one of these in? i’m scared.
• i miss you wanting me.
• i'm the girl you like. and i don't know how to handle it either. but i do know how i feel about you....
• i wish everyone would see you the way i do.
• part of me wishes she'd make a move. i'm too afraid and insecure. i can't do it. what if she rejected me?
• inside i’m crying for the loss of my best friend/ex-bf/baby daddy...he won’t ever know how much actually need him....
• it kills me to hear you say that you want me gone.
• i'm going to kiss her next time i get her alone. i'm going to do it. i need to. i hope she feels the chemistry like i do.
• last night i had a dream about him. with every inch of my body, i desperately want it to come true.
• you told me you were still in love with me an i told you i was pregnant... you told me to get an abortion an i said i can't do that... that was the last time i heard from you... as much as i hate you i miss you so much....
• i wish someone would reach out to me an see how much i am really hurting... i could really use someone right now but everyone else is too busy with their own problems to see how much i need them...
• i will be strong and hold it all in. i am better than this. i am i am i am i am… i hope….
• your eyes give it all away, there's so much to say. but we leave it unsaid.