9.3.09

i'm going to attempt another theme week. the last went over so well that i'm keeping my fingers crossed that this will work again. i will also publish any secrets sent to me, just as i did last time. for this week's theme, answer this question:

...what is your armor?

i will not elaborate on the question, so please do not ask. i will only publish one answer per phone number and the answer must fit into the space of a single text (160 characters or less). i'm excited to hear back from you.

please tell your friends about this blog and encourage them to join the conversation.

as always, thank you for sharing. here's this week's secrets:

  • i wish i had died instead of my mom. since my parents died i haven't felt alive.
  • i love you. i don’t know how i'm going to live without you. i’m going back over to iraq as a contractor. my only hope is to be killed so i don’t have to deal with pain anymore. so you get your wish that your completely rid of me. i'm sorry i’ve hurt you so bad. i love you.
  • every night i fear that somebody will tell the authorities about him but none of it ever even happened.
  • i love him but i’m too afraid to tell him. it’ll kill me if he doesn’t say it back. that’s my biggest fear right now.
  • you make me so happy.
  • we’ve been sneaking around for over a year. i’m in love with my daughter’s husband and i’m scared she and my wife will find out.
  • my sister taught me everything i know about sex.
  • i heard you broke up. do you think we have a chance to be friends again?
  • i miss you. all my friends are right. we would end up being together if you were here but i would want it that way. you made me really happy.
  • whenever i hear, "if i was your vampire", i still think of that night, in the tent, when everything felt perfect.
  • i’m in love with my best friend. weed brought us together. you’re getting distant but i’m still addicted to both of you.
  • i hate living at home. i want to move out.
  • i hate not knowing who my true friends are but i guess not really knowing is part of life.
  • i’ve never felt more hopeless than i do right now yet people marvel at how strong and happy i am.
  • i sit in the front of my english class so my teacher can look up my skirt.
  • nothing hurts me more than to hear my mom say she has no regrets after having an affair. dad was the best thing to happen to her. i guess that was only temporary.
  • just when i was doing my fucking best, that’s when i see you; plus wife, plus kid.
  • one time when i was at my girlfriend’s house her dog kept jumping on me so i “spartan kicked” it.
  • i go to confession without panties and touch myself while the priest is talking.
  • i can see the good in everybody but myself.
  • i secretly hope his girlfriend is pregnant so he will have to tell his boyfriend about her. i’m tired of being the only one who knows the truth, especially when he thinks he’s getting away with lying to me. i know the truth and because i know the truth we’re growing apart as best friends. i hate the lies. / every time i’m having a bad day or i’m kind of down my favorite band comes on the radio. i like to think of the coincidence as if someone is watching over me and knows that it will make me feel better. it wouldn’t be so random if they were a popular band but since they are new to the mainstream, i like to think they’re played just for me.
  • i dated a guy i knew would cheat on me because he was so attractive he made me feel hot just being next to him. when i found out he cheated, i had sex with his best friend to get back at him. his friend was a lot better! / i love being your friend but i’m so glad we went to different schools being with you is so emotionally draining that i want to cry whenever i come home from hanging with you.
  • we’re getting so good at making excuses for our latest mistakes.
  • after ordering pizza for only myself, i yell, “pizza’s here!” so the delivery guy doesn’t think i’m eating alone.
  • i’m glad you’re back in my life. even though you completely crushed me when you left before i still love you and praying you make this time worth all of the pain from before.
  • i was so nervous on my wedding day i was sweating bullets. not even a valium helped. i didn’t think anything would help until my fiance’s mom took me aside and gave me head. i had a clam smile on the rest of the day.
  • after a year and a half of hell, you’d think i’d run from him. but in all honesty, more than anything, i’m terrified he’ll abandon me.
  • you are successfully pushing me away. i love you and would do anything to for you but you just won’t let me. i don’t know what else to do. it hurts me so much to have to walk away.
  • i can’t wait until summer and my son is home from college so i can watch he and his hot friends play around the pool!
  • i desperately want to meet new people, however, i don’t put any effort into it.
  • i’m seeing an old flame but i still feel crippled with commitment because of my ex. i don’t think i’m ready for this.
  • i wish i could see that little kid again and let his mother know that his smile and “hi” made my day.
  • i hate that everyone i know compares me to my best friend and how they tell me i should be more like her.
  • i take my mother’s xanax pills.
  • my sister and i masturbate together.
  • i think i found a way to make it all better but i might be afraid to go after it.
  • she’s right next to me and i’ve never missed her more.
  • i’m glad you and your boyfriend broke up. it was an unhealthy relationship. hopefully now you can get better and stop cutting.
  • i have secrets that i try to hide even from myself.
  • i wish he wanted me the way he wanted her.
  • you’re a selfish, dumb, inconsiderate brat! there, i said it.
  • i had sex with the limo driver and his friend before picking up my boyfriend before prom.
  • i almost gave up on christian guys until i met you. thanks for giving me hope that there are decent guys out there.
  • my mother’s cackling laugh stirs so much anger in me that i want to hit her. i’m not a violent person.
  • i have a crush on the boy my best friend is in love with.
  • so i met this guy and i like him but i have a boyfriend. i feel so damned guilty because of the fact that i was so hurt when he liked someone.
  • i love my girlfriend but i want this guy to fuck me. problem is that i’m so afraid of the affects of sperm that i can’t do it. it scares me. also, i don’t want to leave her.
  • i was inspired by a secret so i asked my fiance for a puppy and i haven’t been happier!
  • i wish i could be that girl in those love songs i hear.
  • honestly i don’t know why i try. i feel so weak and pathetic. i’ve never had a normal relationship. am i trying enough? is it normal to feel this way?
  • it’s been over a year since i was in the hospital last time. i still want to kill myself. it never gets better.

7 comments:

Kevlene said...

What does it mean when there are two secrets under the same bullet point seperated by a slash?

chibi said...

it means that the same person sent in more then one secret....

Anonymous said...

she’s right next to me and i’ve never missed her more.


she left for the navy today.

Anonymous said...

i have found a light at the end of the tunnel in the form of a boy who actually makes m heart race with excitment..

he's wonderful and i think he is what i need to get me back on track and make me happpy.

he has shown me how i deserve to be treated.

i want him to see this and know its about him. im just scared i'll fall in love too easliy.

fingers crossed (L)

Anonymous said...

I missed out on sending in a secret this week.
Looks like some other people posted them for me.



you're not alone.

Anonymous said...

there is more to this i know.

Anonymous said...

the sad thing is, i can relate to All of these:

i’m glad you’re back in my life. even though you completely crushed me when you left before i still love you and praying you make this time worth all of the pain from before.

you are successfully pushing me away. i love you and would do anything to for you but you just won’t let me. i don’t know what else to do. it hurts me so much to have to walk away.

i desperately want to meet new people, however, i don’t put any effort into it.

i have secrets that i try to hide even from myself.

so i met this guy and i like him but i have a boyfriend. i feel so damned guilty because of the fact that i was so hurt when he liked someone.

i wish i could be that girl in those love songs i hear.

honestly i don’t know why i try. i feel so weak and pathetic. i’ve never had a normal relationship. am i trying enough? is it normal to feel this way?