26.1.09

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thank you all for sharing. here are this week's secrets:

  • i have the doctors, my family, and friends convinced that i have a terminal illness but i don’t. i take the meds and all.
  • my live-in boyfriend of three years is not in love with me anymore. i don’t know what it will take to end it with him since i haven’t yet.
  • no one knows how scared i really am.
  • i have herpes and just found out my boyfriend is cheating on me. i want to give him herpes so he will think she gave it to him.
  • my granddad is dying. i have no idea what to do.
  • the more you tell me to sleep more, eat regularly, study more, the more you push me away. i know what i'm doing. i'm here, aren't i? i know i can do this and the more you tell me to "take care of myself" the more aggravated i get at this place. don't push me away after i've learned to trust you.
  • my mom died when i was 12. my daddy hasn’t been with anyone else. now i’m 17 and he’s dating and i hate her because i want to be the only woman he wants in his life.
  • i’m in lust with a 19 year old guy. i’m 31. i wouldn’t want my son dating someone that much older. i feel like such a loser.
  • i think i was raped by a classmate while in kindergarten and now i’m scared shitless.
  • i was attracted to him before i knew him. now he’s my best friend and i think i love him. i’m pretty sure he feels the same but what if he doesn’t?
  • deep down there’s a part of me that wants to be a housewife.
  • last semester i had a crush on a guy in my class. we became really good friends so i decided to take one of the same classes with him this spring. now we’re in the same room and it’s awkward.
  • i wish i was 18 so i could get antidepressants without my mom knowing. she is sure i’m not depressed and she doesn’t trust those drugs anyway.
  • i lie awake every night until 11:11 waiting for another foolish chance to wish for true love.
  • i wish to fall in love every 11:11
  • i’m having a affair with a woman my mom’s age and it turns me on so much when she calls me her little boy!
  • part of me doesn’t want to move in with him because he doesn’t like cats. i love cats.
  • i’m half black and i feel bad for not really caring about obama becoming president. all of my friends were making a big deal about inauguration day too but i was just happy my school kept cancelling classes.
  • when i got my new blackberry storm i told everyone i hated it just to sound spoiled.
  • i’m not as strong as people think.
  • i have so many secrets i don’t know who i am anymore.
  • all through this you turned me into we. if i said i couldn’t do something you said we could but now you don’t and i’m all alone and it hurts.
  • i hit myself. the bruises come from me.
  • i admit i have a problem invading my boyfriend’s privacy but i can’t stop now that i’ve learned i can’t fully trust him.
  • i’m really sick of trying to be perfect but i have to keep trying because i’m afraid of disappointing my mom.
  • i’m so egotistical that i think he’s gay because he rejected me.
  • i am truly over him but when we are together i can’t help but think how amazing it would be if we dated.
  • i wish i had a terminal illness so make a wish would grant my wish to meet zach roloff.
  • you’re my best friend but i’d pick them over you any day. i know that sounds bad but i want friends and i have more when you’re not around.
  • i hate it when girls decorate their myspace pages with tributes to their boyfriends but really i’m just jealous.
  • he doesn’t know how afraid i am of losing him. i love him so much.
  • it was never simple with you, just extravagant. i’m ready for simple.
  • i tell my dog everything because i know he’s the only one who’ll never judge me.
  • just when i thought i had it all together my dad died and my mom got laid off. i can’t express how fucked up i think the world is.
  • i finally realized he will never be the guy i want him to be; i can’t keep wishing he will be one day. it’s over.
  • i say i love myself but i don’t i just don’t have the will power to have an eating disorder.
  • i get upset when he talks to other girls.
  • i leave the door open when i shower so my little brother can look in.
  • i never realized how stupid and fake she was until she broke my heart.
  • i told him i was over him because i know that’s what he needed. i’m letting him leave with a clear mind even though it’ll kill me everyday he’s gone.
  • i married the wrong guy. i’m totally in love with his brother.
  • i have a huge crush on obama. his ears turn me on.
  • i anonymously call his favorite radio station and request his favorite songs when i know he’s listening. i miss him so much.
  • they all told me not to talk to them when i’m unhappy. now they think i’m happy but i still cut. i just don’t tell them because i know they don’t care.
  • you’re better for me than he is. fuck you for showing me that.
  • i’m a senior in college and i masturbate more than a 15 year old boy. my boyfriend doesn’t know how much i do it without him.
  • i’m terrified the girl my boyfriend cheated on me with is having his baby.
  • i lie a lot and about anything.
  • i cry during romantic comedies because they show me how much i’m loved.
  • my younger sister calls me anorexic. at 15 and pregnant, i weighted 165 pounds. 17 months later, i weigh 99 pounds. i’m finally admitting i need help.
  • i use my cell phone as a vibrator.
  • i pretend to hate how many different guys my mom brings home but i love listening to her get fucked.
  • i just came back from a cruise where i fell for a boy in a week out at sea. i have a boyfriend, and now i don't feel anything for him. i'll never see the boy from the ship again.
  • i want him to leave his wife and come back to me. everything was so good with us and everything is so shit with her. why doesn’t he see that?
  • i’m over her and now she’s mad at me. i thought this is what you wanted?
  • i’m afraid no one would believe me if i told them i work out for an hour every night.
  • i let a mall santa touch me when i sat on his lap. i went back three times.
  • i saw his girlfriend in the bathroom and i considered telling her everything he wants kept in his past.
  • i don’t have a crush and i don’t know why but i think there must be something wrong with me.
  • i’m in love with him and i’d do anything for him but i don’t know how to tell him
  • i’m terrified that my boyfriend will make our break permanent if i’m too clingy but i love him and i don’t know how long i can hold that back.
  • i was strong enough to say no when i wanted to give in so badly. i left with a smile instead of a regret.
  • when you left, it felt like you sliced me open and gutted me, leaving me to be just an empty shell. i’ve never loved someone as much as i love you, and i don’t believe that i ever will. as much as i hate you right now, i know that no woman will ever be able to care about you as much as i do. and when you realize that, i’ll still be here. when i said forever, i meant it. because i literally loved you so much that it hurt. every time i saw you i was so overcome with emotion that i didn’t know what to do or think and it just ended up causing me pain. you still are my whole world. please realize that.
  • i wish i was stronger, that way i would tell you i have feelings for you again, and not play it off as "my friend hacked my msn".
  • my biggest fear is that i will be a failure in the eyes of my children.
  • my big sister practices giving blow jobs on me
  • i have the biggest crush on this "emo" girl at my school, but i can't talk about it to anyone, because then they would know i am bi and they would all hate me.
  • my sister caught me taking her panties out of the hamper. i told her i was selling them to a friend but really they were for me to use when i masturbate.
  • i just want to be loved like that.
  • i’m angry at the world right now.
  • i don’t think i can take another day of this. i want to end it all. i already have everything planned, from the note to the tombstone.
  • i tried to make a move on my gay friend. i hate the way i feel after stupid drunk nights.
  • i am proud of the fact that i am finally able to unlock most of the special texts he sent to me.
  • i lied. i didn’t quit. i’m sorry. i tried.
  • i am going to texas with my boyfriend to meet the rest of his family. i’m nervous and excited at the same time. what if they don’t like me?
  • i’m bi-sexual and i’m head over heals for a girl. the problem is she is straight. it breaks my heart to know i’ll never be with her.
  • friday night i came the closest i’ve ever come to killing myself. i called the suicide hotline and it saved me.
  • please just catch me if i fall and don’t let me go. i hope this day gives us a future to look forward to.
  • every time i walk in on my boyfriend looking at porn i feel like i’m not good enough for him. i hate that he makes me feel like that.
  • i’m planning on making the biggest mistake of my life but it’ll make me happier in the long run. i’ll never be what you want me to be.
  • ever since he fingered me in the movie theater seeing ‘the omen’ every time someone says the word evil i get wet. nobody ever made me feel the way he did.
  • i’m jealous of every girl who is skinnier, prettier, and happier than i am.
  • there is no part of my life that makes me happy because i have never fit in anywhere and i’m afraid i never will.
  • today’s the day. i finally get to say goodbye.
  • for the first time in months i didn’t talk to my best friend before bed. he didn’t call because he now has a new girl in his life. i can’t believe i’m so jealous of someone neither of us knows.
  • i wanted my dog to die before i talked to my ex-best friend again so something big will have changed since she left. now my dog is gone and i feel awful.
  • i’m a freshman in college. statistically i shouldn’t be here and sometimes i wish i wasn’t and that i would end up a cocaine addict like my parents.
  • i’m mad at my two best friends for ruining my twentieth birthday by being mad at each other. i hate that they are so selfish they can’t put aside their differences for me.
  • i hate my ex-best friend's new girlfriend so much that i took the time to find out where she lives and i fantasize about breaking her neck.

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

I can't help it. I feel great seeing my secret on here, I plan to keep sending more in! Thank you, everyone!

Big J said...

LOLLL, so many of these made me laugh :)

Anonymous said...

Nobody knows that I fake my relief whenever a pregnancy test comes up negative. I actually die inside.

Anonymous said...

My best friend of 12 years moved to a new town with her dad our freshman year, we're both now juniors. I feel so alone and depressed. I miss her so much, but she seems happy in her new town. she never calls me anymore, i feel like we're both 2 totally different people now. i cry every night, and i've told her this... but i still don't think she cares...

Anonymous said...

Mine was on here(:
oh great relief.

Anonymous said...

Everytime someone posts "Mines is on here," I always wonder what that person look like to have such a secret.

Anonymous said...

"i admit i have a problem invading my boyfriend’s privacy but i can’t stop now that i’ve learned i can’t fully trust him."

I feel the exact same way. I wasn't suspicious until he was at my house, reading his mail, and he was talking to this girl & she was saying he could do better. so i wanted to read what he said to that, so i got on later, turns out he was saying thank you, that he likes her, ect. ect. we broke up. It's been a little over 2 years since that, we're dating again, and i'm still terrified that he will do it again. he doesn't know i still do it, and i feel terrible for it.

Anonymous said...

"i admit i have a problem invading my boyfriend’s privacy but i can’t stop now that i’ve learned i can’t fully trust him."

This goes along with my secret that's posted up there: "i’m terrified the girl my boyfriend cheated on me with is having his baby."

It's a relief to see it up there, but I'm still so scared.

Anonymous said...

if you can't trust the person you're with then you shouldn't be with them. end of story.

Clewis said...

"all through this you turned me into we. if i said i couldn’t do something you said we could but now you don’t and i’m all alone and it hurts."


A couple months ago, I became friends with this girl and we're now best friends. She's gone through a lot and has one other friend. Every time she's sad, which is a lot. I turn everything that's happened to her into something that happened to us. I like to think it comforts her to know she's not alone and that since we're a 'we', she'll never have to be alone again.

Anonymous said...

I would leave my husband of 6 years for ex boyfriend I haven't seen in 7 years.

Anonymous said...

"i admit i have a problem invading my boyfriend’s privacy but i can’t stop now that i’ve learned i can’t fully trust him."

this is my secret, even though i didn't send it in. thank you.

Anonymous said...

"i’m terrified the girl my boyfriend cheated on me with is having his baby."

She is.

Anonymous said...

"every time i walk in on my boyfriend looking at porn i feel like i’m not good enough for him. i hate that he makes me feel like that."

I feel the same way when I walk in on my husband. it was worse when I was pregnant with his son. I told him how it made me feel, and now he does it in our living room on the couch when he knows I will catch him. I sometimes think he likes making me cry.